it seems as though our days are so busy lately...not that we go out much. we do try to attend the local festivals and such, & a weekly playgroup.
but i find my self wondering lately...am i missing something??
i get up at 5:30 or 6am and work on knitting, or some other crafting (usually to post in my etsy shop) & enjoy a hot cup of coffee (now that baby sleeps until 7am or so :).
at 6:50am i wake orin up (our 9 yr old) for his shower. and at 7am we begin our lessons...it was his idea to get up early. he said that it is easier to focus without the younger lot up & about (which i thought was a very mature observation).
8am breakfast, chores, walk...then home for more lessons (alternating between orin & aydin). we take a lunch break at noon or so & enjoy some time with papa (though lately he has been sleeping later & we haven't gotten to visit as much).
2pm, papa leaves for work & we have a bit of outside time, then rest time. then our last lesson of the day (handwork, baking, etc).
by then it is nearly 5pm, and the boys play until dinner (6pm). then it's baths, tidy the house & get ready for bed. daily gratitude journal & story, then bed at 9pm.
of course, in between all of this is taking the 2 1/2 yr old potty every two hours, changing baby evyn every 2 hr or so (we use cloth diapers), nursing evyn, getting breakfasts, lunches, & dinners made...starting laundry, putting away dishes, breaking up little spats here & there, getting papa up for this day...etc...
i haven't had a lot of free time lately, but today it worked out that this youngest ones fell asleep just as papa left for work. so, i took the opportunity to check my email & pop in on a few blogs of fellow mamas. i am looking at these gorgeous nature tables, children's playrooms that are just beautifully set up & CLEAN, there are posts about dreams & life...the living of life.
then i look at my own posts...everything is homeschool (or at least a good 80-90%)
i had a mom leave a comment last week about "how do i get it all done?!?" that made me feel good. because honestly right now, my children are my life, and as we are a homeschooling family...homeschool is, in effect, my life as well. we don't do workbooks or a laid out curricula because we follow a waldorf approach.
but still i wonder...is this how life is with 4 children (9, 6, 2 & 6months)??
i wonder if my focus is perhaps skewed, maybe i am missing out on the important things in life. i think that i take the time to listen to the bird's song & to stop & smell the flowers, but do i?? the rest of my day i such a blur that i cannot seem to remember if i did or not...
i would love more "free time" with the boys, just to sit & be...but it just doesn't seem to happen, and i don't necessarily think that it is because i am not letting it. i don't overschedule us with outside lesson & activities, the boys each pick one program/class for the fall & one for the spring, chess club every other friday, and 4-h club once per month.
perhaps it only appears that i am living a busy life because i am so involved in my children's lives...because they are all so young yet?? am i so rapped up in my the "one-thing-after-another" that i don't realize how peaceful our days are for the rest of the family??
which brings me back to my original question...am i missing something??...or is this just how life is when you are a homeschooling family of four??