for a good year or so i have been meaning to get a blog up & going, and today seemed to be a good day. the boys are playing quietly in the other room, ehren is napping, and i had that "i will accomplish something that i have been putting off", today, feeling.
why a blog??
no, i do not have an exceptionally large amount of freetime...trust me here. we have 3 boys (8, 5 and 2 years), we homeschool, we are expecting our 4th (a girl!!) in 6 1/2 weeks, and my husband works nights/sleeps days...meaning that pretty much everything involved in our daily routine & the running of our household falls to me.
i have been wanting to start a blog because i think that is it important that we take a bit of time everyday (or even every couple of days) to admire the love & beauty around us, the little things that make life worth living, the innocence, life and evergy that are our children. it is important that we, as mothers, not get so caught up in the "daily grind" (laundry, lessons, cooking, cleaning, dishes, diapers, etc) that our life passes us by. we have to take a step back and b*r*e*a*t*h*e & give thanks...but we must also make time for ourselves, and acknowledge all that we do.
when we spend our days, from morning until night, moving from one task to the next, raising our children can easily fall into that mundane...bowl, cereal, milk, vitamin, napkin...eat...wipe faces, wipe tables...the mental to-do list that we all have, and that is perhaps the worst tragedy. our children deserve better, and we are better than that...and yet i sometimes find myself in just that sort of mindset. autopilot...isn't that what they call it??
so, long story short...i am spending the little bit of time before baby is due to do some inner work. i am stiving no longer to be super mom, but to be here...in the moment mom.
and so the journey begins...